i hate you & i love you !

I’m tearing in two
And I’m not sure what to do
My heart is screaming I love her
My mind saying I hate her
What do I do
I love her, but I hate her?
I love everything about her
I love how she smiles
I love how she can make me smile
I love how no matter what is going on.
I love how she will always be there

But all the same
I hate her
I hate everything she means for
I hate how she can make me smile
No matter how hard I try not to
I hate how she can make me cry
I hate how she can make me sad
I hate how she can make me feel
I hate how she looks at me with her eyes so kind
I hate how all of this makes me love her even more
I hate how I can’t hate her
Most of all I hate myself
I hate myself because
I can never hate you
Ahmed